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હજી કાલ સુધી તો હતો હસતો-રમતો અચાનક શું થયું એની સાથે, જોઈ દિલ બળ્યું છે; બસ આઝાદી થઈ છે કુરબાન એની, જ્યારથી ઘરવાળાઓ એ એનું 'નક્કી' કર્યું છે, આવે છે દૂર દૂર ના સગા વહાલો ના ફોન જેમને ક્યારેય ના જોયા, ના તો જોવા જવું છે "કુમાર" ને "જમાઈ" લગાવે છે લોકો એના નામ સાથે જ્યારથી "ફીયોન્સે" / "ગર્લફ્રેન્ડ" ના નામે attachment મળ્યું છે એની privacy ના પીંછા ક્યારના છે ઉડી ગયા, એની ગર્લફ્રેન્ડ એને girls ને friends થી separate કરે છે! ને એના બધા Bank accounts સુધી તો ઠીક છે, એનું Facebook account પણ એ operate કરે છે!! અડધી રાત્રે ફોન અને SMS ની આપ લે કરે, હમેશા એનો "call waiting " જ આવે છે. મિનીટ ના ૧૦ પૈસા માં વાત કરે છે તોયે, મહીને ૧૫૦૦ રુપયા નું બીલ લઇ આવે છે!! હવે નથી પીતો બીયર એ અમારી સાથે, એની ગર્લફ્રેન્ડ સાથે એ લીચી જ્યુસ પીવે છે! કાલ સુધી ખાતો હતો જે cheeze burst પિઝ્ઝા, એ હવે ઘી વગર ની રોટલીઓ પર જીવે છે ! ભગાવતો કાલ સુધી એ એનું pulsar ૧૨૦ KMPH પર, આજે એની કાર માં "સીટ બેલ્ટ" પહેરી ને ફરે છે. નથી આ...

For you, Here is a song.. For who you are, and where you belong, When you're broken, and everything seems wrong The world holds you up, when you're not strong Ever tried to possess tender rays of light? Lie awake in winter sun burning so bright Or Gaze at the moon, beams in selenitic white Descending on earth, luminous shining delight Ever tried to ride the gentle spring breeze? Or Catch autumn leaves falling from maple trees Stand on the shore and water kisses your feet Run in the woods till you feel your heartbeats Ever tried to catch a raindrop on you face? To wash away your tears, wounds n graze With arms wide open you stand to embrace Falling from heaven, God's very own grace So Keep your sorrows and pain behind God made the world from love, He is kind Its with you, within you, you don't have to find Because you're special, God's very own child God created me, to give you this song with this, you smile and move on For you, this is the message to go strong Y...

A girl with curly brown locks, Pretty as princess or a queen, Has tender smile and dazzled eyes, Face glowing with shyness so serene. She lives like a prisoner of rules, In her palace with stone walls; Tied by strings of sturdy restraints, Her wishes don't matter at all. She is full of life, joy, And she wants to fall in love; She needs her freedom back, Which she truly does deserve Like a bird in the metal cage, She feels trapped, she can’t fly; Her wings nailed to the floor But she wants to reach for the sky. She is waiting for a stranger, Who’ll set her free from this pain, Take her away with him, And only hers, forever he will remain, When someone tries to set her free, She has to make up her mind, Has to trust, forget everything else, And leave her dark world behind. A girl with curly brown locks Whose dream is to fly high, Her saviour is not far away She just needs to open her eye He has a key to set her free All he needs from her, is a sign - Asthir Amdavadi

कब से ये ख़ामोशी हम से कह रही कुछ बाते है अभी भी अनकही ज़ज्बात कुछ है अभी भी बिखरे हुए खुबसूरत से लम्हे है कुछ ठहरे हुए सहमी सी आँखे ये तुम्हारी क्यों है बह रही वक़्त से ये जैसे हो कुछ कह रही पर ये वक़्त है, कहा किसीकी सुनता है गर एक ख्वाब टूटे, तो दिल हज़ार नए बुनता है इसलिए,हम तुम्हारे ही रहेंगे, गर जाये कही क्योकि ये फासलों की दूरियाँ हमारे दिलो में नहीं एक दिन हम यहीं वापस लौट आयेंगे और आपकी मुस्कराहट फिर से लायेंगे ये वादा है हमारा, तुम करना यकीन हमारी खामोशियाँ है आपसे ये कह रही दिल की जुबां बोल गयी वो हर बात अनकही क्योकि हर बात लफ्जों में हो, ये ज़रूरी नहीं - Asthir Amdavadi

Its a full moon night of winter, On the lush green meadow we lie; In the world only you, that matters to me, below this diamonds studded porcelain sky Dont want to ruin the precious silence. Let our eyes speak to us; and our touch. Love your ways to conquer my senses, Hate you for making me want you so much*. Slightest spark sets my soul on fire, As your perfect fingers touch my skin. Your love is my only undisclosed desire, As you are my own personal brand of heroin*. I wonder, as your love grows upon me, What's more beautiful, this night, or you? Both caressing and embracing me with serenity, You; brighter than moon, and the night; perfect blue. Golden hair, tender lips, and wet smell of your perfume, Soothing as cold breeze, full moon and first snow; Your dazzling light brown eyes staring at me, like billions of stars sparkling in the Milky way above. I don't have strength to stay away from you anymore*, Your skin glows in the cascade of moonlight, And I lie awake ...

He's a teenage boy In his early sixteens Wants to rule the damn world And be rich by all means Always stealing money from his father's purse Wants bike & expensive cells, What could be worse He goes to the gym He wants six packs No signs of any guts Only muscles n big biceps Tries to show his wealth Though he doesn't worth a dime Always flirting with girls Remaining single is a crime Drinks booz to get high N smokes to look cool Piercing on the eyebrow 'Get wild' is the only rule An addict of drugs n sex Watches porn with friends Has costliest cellphones Follows the latest dirty trends No respect for family at all No value of their deeds He treats them like crap Even if they fulfill all his needs She is a teenage girl Wants to be a queen Had 3 boyfriends Says she is now fifteen In her tiny shorts She keeps smokes n a light Loves to drink n get high when she parties all night A tattoo on the waist And red coloured hair Living in her own world Reality? she doesn...

In the night, somber and freezing, It came like a warm sunrise. Making my soul to glow, Gleam of her clairvoyant eyes. Why was I sulking from love? Or was it just a compromise? Wailing over a closing door, Too much was to sacrifice. Savaged by her ardent memories and emotions too strong to disguise The fragrance of her presence saved me, Made my pain to vaporize I'm running towards the end It's not hard to realize. So Let her love truly love me, on my last day in paradise. - Asthir Amdavadi