Random thoughts...

Million green fields pass in front of my eyes Am I moving forward, or they just fall behind Eyes searching for something, outside the window slit Not sure if something I lost in the way, was ever mine to keep While my mind is weaving all new random thoughts, Heart tries to keep the pace, connecting those dots Missing my old friend, whom I loved from the start Left traces of her imprints, on the surface of my heart World was beautiful, until my wants were my greed A pull against this spell of gravity, that’s what I Need On canvas of my life, now I have this panoramic view Where I can see the whole world, but nothing in there is true I’m moving too fast, my friend, but in the direction opposite you Wanna go forward in reverse mode, if ' He' allows me to - Asthir Amdavadi (Still rusty after a long pause. Originally written on 15-Sept-12)   *' He' - God

A cloudy day, when it started to rain. Not having a clue, if to hide or to embrace it. Kept pushing you out of my mind, but failed In the end, I fell again, in the memories of you Till the time i realised that I am in love again All I think was of you, and your love deep within Its raining above me, now All i want is you Lost in my arms, while getting wet in the rain of my love On the music of raindrops, we dance Vibes of our pounding hearts, feeling your breath over my skin Ending the dry spell; an era without you Yet to give you love; all that you deserve On the edge of losing my senses, i'm doing this crime Under this rain of love, asking you to be mine ! (just quick thoughts) - Asthir Amdavadi

One moment to laugh, one moment to cry One moment to give up on you and one moment to try Moments leave me, want to live them instead With you I stand the world, alone I fear to tread A rain of your love I wish, for this dry spell to pass Like a million morning dew sparkle on wilted grass It all ends with your thought, wherever I start And blood rushes beneath my skin, to my heart Nothing could save me, nothing would go right But with you, I feel true; in the darkness I see light I took a call and you began to stall*, cuts me like a knife But you’re worth a wait, and I don’t mean just this life Your love; when it touches, my heart begins to beat When I make you feel flawless, you make me feel complete I know we’re not exception, nothing lasts forever We can’t win this mortality; at least we can try it together - Asthir Amdavadi (*Stall - avoid making a definite decision in order to give one's self more time)

હજી કાલ સુધી તો હતો હસતો-રમતો અચાનક શું થયું એની સાથે, જોઈ દિલ બળ્યું છે; બસ આઝાદી થઈ છે કુરબાન એની, જ્યારથી ઘરવાળાઓ એ એનું 'નક્કી' કર્યું છે, આવે છે દૂર દૂર ના સગા વહાલો ના ફોન જેમને ક્યારેય ના જોયા, ના તો જોવા જવું છે "કુમાર" ને "જમાઈ" લગાવે છે લોકો એના નામ સાથે જ્યારથી "ફીયોન્સે" / "ગર્લફ્રેન્ડ" ના નામે attachment મળ્યું છે એની privacy ના પીંછા ક્યારના છે ઉડી ગયા, એની ગર્લફ્રેન્ડ એને girls ને friends થી separate કરે છે! ને એના બધા Bank accounts સુધી તો ઠીક છે, એનું Facebook account પણ એ operate કરે છે!! અડધી રાત્રે ફોન અને SMS ની આપ લે કરે, હમેશા એનો "call waiting " જ આવે છે. મિનીટ ના ૧૦ પૈસા માં વાત કરે છે તોયે, મહીને ૧૫૦૦ રુપયા નું બીલ લઇ આવે છે!! હવે નથી પીતો બીયર એ અમારી સાથે, એની ગર્લફ્રેન્ડ સાથે એ લીચી જ્યુસ પીવે છે! કાલ સુધી ખાતો હતો જે cheeze burst પિઝ્ઝા, એ હવે ઘી વગર ની રોટલીઓ પર જીવે છે ! ભગાવતો કાલ સુધી એ એનું pulsar ૧૨૦ KMPH પર, આજે એની કાર માં "સીટ બેલ્ટ" પહેરી ને ફરે છે. નથી આ...

For you, Here is a song.. For who you are, and where you belong, When you're broken, and everything seems wrong The world holds you up, when you're not strong Ever tried to possess tender rays of light? Lie awake in winter sun burning so bright Or Gaze at the moon, beams in selenitic white Descending on earth, luminous shining delight Ever tried to ride the gentle spring breeze? Or Catch autumn leaves falling from maple trees Stand on the shore and water kisses your feet Run in the woods till you feel your heartbeats Ever tried to catch a raindrop on you face? To wash away your tears, wounds n graze With arms wide open you stand to embrace Falling from heaven, God's very own grace So Keep your sorrows and pain behind God made the world from love, He is kind Its with you, within you, you don't have to find Because you're special, God's very own child God created me, to give you this song with this, you smile and move on For you, this is the message to go strong Y...